part 00.0 hi & hugs

I alway give thanks to my Goddess & God. for being here today with love in my heart to shere to all . here is a saying that I try to live by.................................................. I shall pass through this world but only once, anything, therefore, that I can do or any kindess that I can do show to any human being, let me do it now; let me not defer it or neglect it, for I shall not pass this way again!!.... This is the only thing that my Farther gave me in my life.was this saying that I hold dear to my heart. for my Farther disowned me the day I was born.

Hi & Hugs part 00.1...

I am a 57yrs male that try to live in;; Never Never Land where I never get older then 9 yrs old;; in Never Never Land I am 3 who did I get 3 it by adding you age up untel you have 1 dig-it I was born with Nail-Patella-Syndrome,  http://www.nailpatella/org/  &  http://www.npsuk.org/  I had 2 opperations on my legs my right leg at the age of 6,, then the other at the age of 7 this was done back in 1957 & 8 beford then I was not able to walk a long dis-tins i still have some troulbe with them but I can walk for mils.. my arm are litely defrom it can be a has-al at time by locking up on me I had one opp. don't on my right arm at the elbowl there remove part of my bone and so far it has not lock up on me

By now you have seen I have a Learning Dis too called Dyslexa; I am just learning, how to spell so some words you might see a-br-ake as I try to sound it out. and holding one thought way ya I jump around that to is part of my Dyslexa but that fear I have over come ..Fear now, it is To make new friends. in here it ez-er; telling you about myself I can look up a word if I choz to but the the chat room I can't look up a word it comes out the way I sound it out to me Not having any lower teeth it sound weard so my spelling might be weard too lol.   As time go's on and I get more relax in the Chat room talk more about myself.. In here I will add more INFO about me, as time goes on..There is to one word I try to live too is Tolerance  for myself mostly, deffirently. in all chat rooms; I pray that they too;  Have it for me;  .... Hi & hugs part, 00.2 ...................................

  I live in Washington State just out side of Prot Angeles say 8mi. I live on 7 1/2ac of wooded land I have a one bed Tray-ler that is 42' long & 8' wide there no inside toilet the restroom was turn into a pantry a cooler. I love to read like all the [Ology]  yep like Myth,The, Psycho, Soci. that it for now....HI & hugs, PART,00.3.....  I had a hart time at school whin i was growing up at that time Dyslexia was not hear of Iwas classafiled as Mental unfit for learning and that just pass me by whin I got to old i was move up a grade by the time I was 17yrs old I made it to Hi,school grade 9th will I quit school and went to Job Core in uper Wis., Clam Lake Wis. that was the frist time I lived in the woods and love it;; stay in job Core for year & 1/2 but the last haf Priv.. Nex-son close my camp and I went back to Chicago; where I started from still could not read more then a  3grade level;  with some help, I got a job working for the City of Chicago; as a elec-tr-ion; there I stay for 3years. lost my job becouse the city needed the save it reb-ta-sion; so, I and 5 others person I was working with; was given a chose; to quit or be fired I quit. I quite; by quiting I got my back pay, vercaion pay, and sev-rent-pay about...$1500. AND LEFT as fast as I could Chicago. in 1971; Now my true my learning became.. please look for the nex part coming soon.............................................................. part 00.4] trying to live with my Dyslexia; unable to read an apper-cation when I needed work;  as I hich-hike acrose the US; I went right to LA.Ca. and seeing that it was just like Chicago; so I left there right away;  moved on Nouth... My dream was to go to Alaska; but never made it; Going throu the RED WOODS up in nouthen Cal. I see trees biger then any bulding that was in Chicago; bigger then any man made thing there in the Redwoods if you ever have the chance go up 101 on the California coast do it start in spring and finsh it in the fall and if you don't come to a new way of seeing yourself and the world around ya;; for me right then I became to beleve in something; what I was not shere; there was & there is something calling me at that time ; so I move on were nouth to Orgon where I found the Shiloh Minstery where I joned from 1972 to 75 I was in the Shiloh minstery; where I learn how to read the Bible it was the frist book I have every read;; It start me on a new life; and way of thinking; became colse to understanding my path in life;; what I was call for to do and to learn;..  Whom I am:: today I am still Learning Whom I am;::now we move on were to after I left the Minaster..........::::: part 00.5....../..After I left the Misterey I found Dezra Miller; whom became my wife and blessed me with 2 dauthers Sandra & Barbara; we live togather for 13yrs where she met a friend of mine name Ray; well now we are de-voce; sadly to say. it the times we live in;  my X and I are realy good friends and I thanks My Goddess & God for that. our love for eachother is still here but we just can live with eachother. It was mostly my fault why we split;; but that ahold nother chaper of my life. right now my dauthers are 27 & 29 and i am bless with 1 grandDauther 7years old.... there is more to come my life is just starting to get Bor-ing; lol look for ;....part 00.6.......... I lived all over the US in the 70s untell I settal down with Dezra = Dezie we live Portland Or. then and Dezie help me a lot after my fall off the cliff that whin I brock my back it was about 60" or highter she was my mane support and stould by me throu my recovey I became Mr Ma after Sandra = Sandie was born I was glad to find out that she was not born with NPS I injoy being Mr Ma. I able to do something beside feeling like I was worth nothing and when Barbara  was born and not with NPS I was becoming a good Mr Ma all this was taking place in Portland OR. but for me it was just not right in my hear I became to drink and I do mean Drink way more then I should of this was the start of our brake up I just was just to blind to see what I was doing to my famly it was the poor'me syndrome after a full years of this Dazie move out and up to Washington, Sequim at that time it was a one stop light town a good place to raz our dauthers. In Sequim I started going to AA and slow my drinking; aw not stop it  slow it down my pain I was still there from the fall but I was drinking a lot lest then I was in Portland. Dezie was going to school and I was still Mr Ma, I thought thing was getting better. we had good time then and I was not know that Dezie lost her love for me intell Ray a friend of mine got sick and I took him in as friend will do;  I was told that it was over betwin us Dezie and myself I was blind sided and that when I move out to where I am now.....part, 00.7 Now I live on 7 1/2an of wooded land the first year I move out here I was living in a 4man dorm tent that winter it got down to 17de above 0 and3ft of snow with dont happen that offen so I live in the tent all that winter the only heat I had was a colman lanter was my light and heat feeling down after Derzie left and just I do my best and if I live I stay here the rest of my life  you got it I am still here but out of the tent and into a tralyer that 40f by 8f wide a manshion been in this same tralyer going on now 17yrs been on the homested going on 21yrs now and still loving every bet of it coming up Nex How my Sister changes my life; part 1.008 Wow today is Friday Oct. 17 15yrs ago my Brother [deid] Move on to a new place to live his new life;; My brother had throut canser; Why he died ? we all ask that qustoin; he was only 39 yrs old some of us know what pain he carryed from the pass whit that and hes new pain Canser. ? I dont know  or was the the mental pain that he never wanted to relive it again, and I understud for myself I had a greater pain I was 3yrs old then him I should of stop the abuss that are uncal did I was his older brother but I to was lost in the so call Tr-us wow I can spell it trus this sound coses lost my thought sorry:;  ya 39 yrs old amd took his life park in the grarges round down his windows; put some good sound on and just let the car run; So it could be meaning why but what hurt HE did Not reach out to His Famly that hurt sorry I just mad today is his An-a-vest-ry 15yrs ago but thank you for this Chat room where I can come and feel I am with Famly Thanks & hugs Part o.009 coming soon hugs My sister Lynda there for a long time I was living in de-presh-ion lock in my own hear fear of being hurt; to trust someone was out of the qustion so i lock myself out here in the woods I can tell ppl I am out to grow more spirital become one with my Goddess & God I am a earthling all I need is the Woods and my Spirit fuled with love and peace;; Yep I had all that untell my Sister gave me a LAP TOP yes a computer;; it was for me to write the stories; of my life Hich Hiking around this county my trav els from the east cost to the west Cost seeine the Canada border & the Mexecal border and all the state in betwen them;;  WELL the writing never happen but I found Chat rooms I found ppl that have been throu life the hard way like I have fighting to be seen and heared knowing how it feels whem someone looks at you diffent becouse you are Deffint in there eyes] be if it, being slow to learn, to move out of they way, being slow to see what they talking about ppl like Me looking go find some place that I can Be! me and not wary about being look down apond; MY Sister gave me a new life;;; YES a NEW LIFE by opening up to the ppl in the chat room I am learning to TRUST other to feel free to be whom I am;; I am far from being anything great but In the Chat room I cam Be ME and this I own to my Sister for giving the Door to open & the help from my GODDESS & GOD whom 2 gave the Stranth to open the door and For You all who is taking the time out to know whom I am:: a child in theis world learning how to trust again thank you All for being here HUGss  Part 0.o1 a little more it will never end as long as I am welcome to shere you all a part of my life thank you hugss aww today Oct 29 2008 [today is 11/18/08 Talk to my Mother the other day she 82 have recovered for a storke and doing what beleves in 30yrs ago My Mother became a widows; and the love for her faith she became a NUN; At that time I was just leaving the Shiloh Minstry. today; My Mother have been a Nun now for 31yrs. We beleve on the samething "That Love & forgivness will open your up heart to see the truth and that truth will set your Spirit free".. I love my Mother for she was my strangth in my life as I grew up; but she also was an in-ab-blur That was one of many reason I left the Windy City. and that is will I leave ya for now I will be back to add more peace is of my life;;[ O, yea; if you reading this and learning a little about me please let me know something about you..] now on to a new part .... Part 0.1

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