Challenge rockerwoman

I love to sew.If I can sit long enough,LOL

Photography,Mostly of my dog and Garden.

Tole paint,on anything,if my ole hand's are steady.

I enjoy being on the computer,sitting like many here is hard to do,so I take walk break's.

I have no problem listening to other's problem's,I have been told I am a Good Listner.

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I am a Female.
Been Happily Married for 29yr's to my Soul mate!! and Caretaker,who never complain's,and has never left my side,thru thick and thin,I am so GRATEFULL.


I Have 2 son's28-24 who live on their own.I have alway's been active,with them,until my body changed,they don;t like what my illness has done to my body,and my mind.



I worked for 30 yr's in the Nursing Field,and Loved my job and my Patient's very much.I worked in the Endoscopy Dept,a very challenging field,never a dull day.At the end,when I got worse,I could barley work my 10 hr shift's and do call time,for a week,24/7.



My Doc's had me go part time,though it was still hard to get up in the am,had to get up 1 hr early just to wait for my body to move to get ready for work,and I was still late for work.



So last year at work,I got up from sitting,and my leg's would not move,and when i tried,shooting pain;s shot down both sides.That was my last day of work,and here I am,writing about my story.



I had to have spinal surgery a week later to decompress my spinal canal,and he did a spinal fusion.He said my spine look's like an 80 yr old's.


They told me that when I was 32 and had my fisrt spine surgery,but then I had to ruptured disk removed along with a spinal fusin.
That time it was after having my second son,bent over to put him in the play pin,and could not move at all,without those shocking pain's down my leg's and in my back.



I wish I could be my ole self,but have dealt with the issue I never will be,so I have accept what I have become,of coarse after alot of Therapy.



I have a Beloved Dog,my very first one.
He is a German Shepherd who is my Pride and Joy,a Gentle Giant at 120 lbs,help's me get up from a sitting or laying postion,when I fall,he stradles me and lick's my face,why?? I don"t know,when I do get up he herd's me for awhile...he's very protective of me.



He is also the Reason for me to keep active,going out and all the thing's you do for a Dog.Otherwise,I probally would just sit in a chair all day,where I feel I have less pain,and I cannot hurt myself,by moving.



I recently got SSD,after my last spine surgery,I applied once,with no attorney and was accepted,I was shocked with all the horror stories I heard.



I know this is boring,but my medical problems are long,and I get so mad at my body at times.
Yes,I do know other's are worse off then I am,I could be worse,so I do have EMPATHY,for anyone who suffer's with pain and are Disabled from it.



I have trouble with anyone feeling sorry for me,or trying to help me,just becuase I walk with a wheel walker or my cane,or hear what i have been thru.



I was use to being the one taking care of everyone else,not them waiting on me.



Since my spine surgery recovery,I still have much weakness in my leg's,where I have fallen many time's.



I also have Scolisosis,in the Thoratic area,which stick's out more and more,and it's hard to stand straight.3 spine doc's said it's inoperable,and to dangerous to rik my life over,so i have to live with the Chronic pain I live with it.



I have
Spinal Stenosis
Scolisis(Thoratic) area
Spondo losis)sp_Slipped disk
Spinal arthritis
Spinal DDD
Spinal Spur's
Bulging Disk
osteoposris..probally from all the stroid injection's
Vitimin D defiency
Glaucoma
Graves disease(Thyrois condtion)
Lupus
Depression/Panic attack's
and ext..
Depresses me and embarrases me just to write all these,so that's all I am writing for now..